Frustrated and irritated...

Eurovision song contest is over, and the wrong song won. Russias song was okay, it was one of the better ones but there were some others I have rather seen as winner.. but what makes me most frustrated is that every country from east and from the balkan area woted for eachother and gave eachother high points.. seems like they don't ccare about the song but only that it's their neighbor.. sigh.. We were about 6 people watching the ESC at Sara´s place and everyone were soo mad when we went home. Not ´cause Charlotte didn't win but for what I just wrote and for that Ukrain came higher then Sweden. They had similar shows and songs but Charlotte were better.. but Ukraine probably won wotes ´cause she played on/with her sexiness.. makes me so mad that people votes just ´cause she´s sexy.. ooooh... well well, nothing to do about. Charlotte did a great job but it didn't work this time.

The last weeks has been lots of ups and downs. I have been tired and a little low, felt blue and I don't know why. Have no reasons. I love my life. But I'm getting so tired of my job, not the job really but to get early. It really starts to wear me out :( I'm so glad I don't have so many weeks left.. and some of thoose days I'm gonne work with the kids so it'll go fast I hope!! Can't wait to go to the States.. in less then a month I'm there :)

Have been working with my the kids, instead of cleaning, a lot lately, which has been awesome!! :) have been hanging out with my friends some. Watched Göteborgsvarvet, meet with a friends I haven't seen for a long time- sooo nice to see him, just awesome!! Have been to Liseberg, have hung out & watched TV with friends. Have had icecream. Have been good weeks and I have an awesome life and really enjoy it, but in the same time I just wanna be home, pull something old over me and cry and disapear... I feel God is working and I know it will go away some time, so I just have to hang in and wait and focus and I'll come out stronger.. been there, done that so many times before.. recognize the signs..

Time to eat breakfast.. porrige and sandwich with eggs..
xoxo

well well..

Hallo hallo meine freunden :)

So.. it'a little more then a week since I posted. Have had the intentions to write several times this past week but never gotten to it.. as always :) Right now I'm having a relaxed evening in the sofa watching tv. "Sleepless in Seattle" just started..

Had a good weekend in Halmstad last weekend. The conference were good and giving but the annual meeting were pretty dull- no big decisions or so, but it's interesting to be there and see how it works! Alexandra and I had fun sharing room. So nice to get away some and just take care of yourself and get everything served.. the breakfastbufé were soo good :)
The conefrence's schedule were so intense and packed with different things that you couldn't go on everything, and you didnt't have the energy eather.. so Alexandra, I and our friend Jenny skipped some things sometimes and just relaxed on our rooms or had something to eat or looked around in the "hood" instead, One day we went to Tylesan(a big beach right outside Halmstad).. so nice just walk on the beach, have ice-cream and fool around :)
The tuition and services at the conference were awesome!! Olov´s especially... wow.. such message and encourachment!! hope everyone could take in the right way!! I also met a friend I haven't seen for a long time.. soo good to see her!

This week has been good.. worked with the kids two days so I have just cleaned two days *joy* kind of sick of my job right now.. really wears me out to get up at 5 three days/week. Can't make it for so much longer but have no other oppurtunity if I don't wanna work late everyday and I don'y wanna do that. Hopefully it's just a phase I go through but otherwise I'm done a little more then a month, and then I'm of to the U.S :) happy happy..

Have gotten some clarity in the things I have been thinking about and feelt lately, feels like it loosens up some- or atleast I have gotten some guidance in what I need to do.. feels good!! The sun and my free afternoons, which have made some reflections possible, has been well needed! I'm so enjoying the sun and warmth.. awesome :) sat outside church for several hours yesterday..

well.. that's it for now. Gonna watch some TV and then go to bed..
love