Älska mig för den jag är

Se mig för här är jag
låt mig få komma nära
till era hjärtan så som den jag är
den jag försöker vara
ge mig min morgondag
min enda önskan nu och här
älska mig för den jag är

Se fjärilns vingeslag
i alla himlar fara
se alla ögon blinka stjärneljus
låt livet komma nära
se mig för här är jag
min enda längtan nu och här
älska mig för den jag är

Låt livet komma nära
se mig för här är jag
min enda längtan nu och här
älska mig för den jag är

Se fjärilns vingeslag
i alla himlar fara
se alla ögon blinka stjärneljus
låt livet komma nära
se mig för här är jag
min enda längtan nu och här
älska mig för den jag är
min enda längtan nu och här
älska mig för den jag är

hmmm...

have had a pretty good week.. socialy and workwise at least. On Friday evening Alexandra and I went to Fredrik's place just to hang out and eat tacos and applepie! really nice evening!! on Saturday I helped Per & Karin to move to their new house. Went smooth and pretty fast.. the evening were spent at home relaxing. My cold and carrying all that stuff wore me out.. Sunday was church as usual. Really good sermon and awesome worship!! so focused and thoughtworthy!

Been working this week, mostly half days. So nice to have the afternoons off! I wonder if I ever will be able to work fulltime. The weeks I have done that I have been so tired. Monday was Sara's 30th birthday so in the evening the whole gang went there to celebrate her.. fun fun!! good to see everyone and looots of food and candy/sweats.. :)

Yesterday evening was dance in church. Was okay and fun.. got some fun & creative ideas for the future! hope we can make them all come through! :) need to think it thorugh and decide so we get it done!

Still not gotten rid of the cold I catched. It's almost almost gone, but not 100% well yet.. sigh. I don't know if it's the cold that has made me so tired lately or if it's something else..anyways, I'm gonna rest & sleep this weekend, hopefully it will help! and I'm gonna get a massage by a friend!!! :) will be sooo nice! and I will massage her too. Long time since I gave a massage so it will be nice! looking forward to it!

Hopw you all will have a good weekend..
xoxo

Runny nose..

I catched a cold :( started about a week ago with a soar throat and then yesterday evening my nose glogged and then it got runny :( sigh.. and today it has contoniued to run and I think my sinuses is infected too but I don't know. Gonna call the doctor's office tomorrow morning..

I spent the weekend at my parent's place in my beloved Delsbo. Awesome to come home again and see everyone! My nieces and nephew were so excited. Seemed liked they lived at my parent's house this weekend-except when they ate and slept. They spent every waken hour with me and my parentes it seemed like :) but it was awesome to play boardgames & cards, draw, lay puzzles, watch movies, read and so on. The only bad thing was my thorat, I could hardly speak and were so hoarse.

On Sunday afternoon Albin had a birthdayparty. He turned 6. It was fun. Nice to see my sister-in-laws family again. And my sister with family came too :) so good to see them! Later in the afternoon a cousin came by with her son & boyfriend to say hi and on Monday before lunch I visited another cousin.. awesome to see them!! wanted to see some more people but I was to tired and not in the mood 'cause of my throat. But I really enjoyed to just be at home and relax, to get breakfast, lunch & dinner served :)

On monday before I left they called from where I have been working the past weeks and told me I didn't get the substitute post I applied to :( a little sad and dissapointing, but I'm not worried. God probably has other plans for me this fall. This week, for example, I clean in church..

Think I'm gonna continue to cure myself with some honeywater and watching tv..
Take care!
xoxo

New week..

Had a goood weekend, relax and easygoing with some things happening..
Friday evening I went to town with Alexandra & some more friends to listen to a "concert" in a church. Then we went to another church to listen to gospel and have tea at their café. It was lots of fun & really nice!! Then a friend of mine came and met with us 'cause she was gonna spend the weekend at my place.. nice to see her again and have some company!! Thanks for comming :)

Saturday was mostly spent at home relaxing, while my friend were at a class downtown. In the evening another friend came by and we three just sat talking, eating candy and just enjoying the peacefullness and the relaxing..

Sunday morning-early afternoon was as relaxed as the previous days and in the late afternoon I went to my brother's place to my niece's birthday party! she turned 1 about a week ago. We had cookies, coffe and of course cake! it was nice! Good to see them all again and to chat some with my sister-in-law.. she's so wise!!

Yesterday I worked at my old job in the afternoon and then it was prayinggroup in the evening. Awesome evening! It was awesome and so encouraching to pray with Jonas and Malin. The Lord answered some prayers right away.. pretty cool :)

Today I worked where I have been working the last three weeks and after lunch I went to a employmentinterview there! Hope I get the substitutepost I applied to, would be awesome, but it's just to wait and see! Gonna work this week anyways..

I just got back from an evening in church and then a trip to "the golden arches".. and surprise surprise, I had ice-cream :) coudn't resist!
Think I'm gonna go to bed soon, I'm kind of sleepy but feeling relaxed and satisfied right now..

Blessed be Your name

Blessed Be Your Name
In the land that is plentiful
Where Your streams of abundance flow
Blessed be Your name

Blessed Be Your name
When I'm found in the desert place
Though I walk through the wilderness
Blessed Be Your name

Every blessing You pour out I'll turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in, Lord Still I will say
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name

Blessed be Your name
When the sun's shining down on me
When the world's 'all as it should be'
Blessed be Your name

Blessed be Your name
On the road marked with suffering
Though there's pain in the offering
Blessed be Your name

Every blessing You pour out I'll turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in, Lord Still I will say
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name

Friday!!

And so it's weekend it again.. unbelieavable how fast the weeks passes by!
Thought I was gonna work today but there were only 4 kids today so I got to spend the day off, and I'm soo enjoying it! Nice to sleep in and to wake up in your own paste and have coffee while you watch TV, walking around doing things that need to be done. I have gone through my wardrobe, watered my flowers and taken away dead leaves from them and now I'm soon gonna sort through some papers that has piled up. bu the best part is just to be able to sleep & relax.. need it so badly!! Amazing how tired you can get after 3 days of work.. just incredible. I really love kids & enjoy working at daycares but I don't think I wanna work at a daycare when I'm done with my education/later on in life.. wanna work with kids but to take care of 9-15(20 at some places) kids 5 days/week is just to exhausting. I really admire the ones that do that!! Think I wana work in church with young kids there or at a hospital at the "playtherapy" and help sick kids handle & understand what they go through & experience..

My friend Julia came by the other day and spent the night. It was nice to see her! We had a good time looking at pictures from kindergarden, early school years and so.. it's awesome to be nostalgic and remember old classmates and Delsbo memories :) also found an old pic from sundayschool in church.. oh my God, you should see it :) think I'm gonna post it on facebook as fast as I have scanned it. So Kristina & Katarina keep your eyes open :)

Have a great weekend my loves..
xoxo

You raise me up..

When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary;
When troubles come and my heart burdened be;
Then, I am still and wait here in the silence,
Until you come and sit awhile with me.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up: To more than I can be.
(Josh Groban)

tickets for x-mas..

just booked traintickets to go home to my parents place for x-mas, wee!! :) so now it's done, it was a little expensive but not so bad..

Talked on the phone with my mum earlier this morning and it seems like my oldest brother and his family his comming home for x-mas too, even though they were at my parent's place last year. They usually alternate between the families. I don't mind, will be awesome to spend x-mas with them!! and my brother and family in Alingsås is comming too. So I guess we will be everyone this year!! fun fun fun!! :) at least one of the x-mas days it will be all of us, my youngest brother & his fiance usually just shows up on x-masday for some hours. It will be hectic and caotic days filled with running & playing kids but it will be awesome to see everyone, sooo many years since we all celebrated x-mas together!!

didn't go to my brother's place :( yesterday I was tired and it just didn't work out.. and today my sister-in-law had become busier then she thought she would be and my brother is working so it wasn't a good day as it seemed to be earlier, so I'm home, doing laundry and getting things done. Feels good to have a day at home..and then prayinggroup tonight!! :) yeeah!!

ooh, must tell: they called from were I have been working the last two weeks and wanted to have me on a employment interview next week!! :) exciting!!
have a good day/week!!
xoxo

Awesome but confusing days..

Hello everyone!
Have spent most of the last two days at a leadershipcourse with some people from church. It's called "global leadership summit" and it's from willow creek community church in Chicago. It has been awesome! So uplifting, inspiring, challenging, educational.. just soo good! They had really good and devoted people that spoke about about heir leadership in their churches/companies. So much to melt and take in now. But it's good to think over your leadership and see how you are what you can do better..

Friday evening was spent at home. It was nice and relaxing but hard in the same way, some things came up inside me and made me think. Hard and frustrating but I'm glad God showed me it. And I'm soo glad I have friends that I can ask to pray for me. Got a text on my cell from one and it spoke so clearly and was so right.. I hadn't told him what I wanted him to pray for just that I wanted some prayer. I just love how God works :)

Yesterday when the summit was over me & some friends went to a friend that had a combined birthday & housewarmingparty. We were all tired but had such a good time!! Haven't lauged like that for some weeks.. we goofed around, threw paper airplans, danced, played charades and just talked.. really good evening!!

During the evening I noticed a strange thing had happend with me. So confusing but fills me with hope & expectation too.. I really hope it it what it is, would be sooo great and such joy for me! *hooopes*

Right now I'm just enjoying the Sunday watching TV and having coffee.. thinking about visit my brother with family. The youngest turns one tomorrow :) Then it's church as usual tonight- we will get visited by a bishop from tanzania. Exciting!! :) Then it's floorrball. Will be nice to get some exercise after two days of sitting and eating :)

xoxo

Tired...

I am sooo tired, I'm almost falling asleep in my sofa. So I just made some tea.. maybe that will keep me awake until bedtime..

Have been good but busy days and I have been so tired. The weekend was really nice and relaxed. Most of it was spent at home doing laundry, some cleaning and just relaxing. Went to the movies with my friend/ex coworker on saturday afternoon. That was the only thing I did..

This week I have been working everyday at the christian daycare i worked last week. It's lots of fun and the staff & kids are just so sweat but it's exhausting too, but all the hugs & all the funny coments from the kids makes it worth it :) And today one of the moms said she wishes that I would get the longterm substitue post.. made me glad!! I really like working there and I hope I get to work next week too but at the same time if feel like, how am I gonna manage to work 5 days a week when I'm so tired after 4 days and have no family to take care of?? it's such a different life from the one I have had with studies some years ago and working half days last year, Then I had time to hang out with friends, be in church, have lunch and so with friends alot more then right now. If I'm gonna work like I do now the rest of the fall I really have to get used to change my life and get used to new rutines. But that could be a good experience I guess.. i have to learn sometime. Or?? :)

On Tuesday after work I had an appoitment with my conversional buddy/mentor. Haven't talked with him for about 5 months,so it was really good to see him again! We had a really good, interesting and uplifting chat. Think it was encouraching & uplifting for him as well- it makes me glad when what I experience can help & encouarch someone else! It's amazing how wonderful it can be to put your thoughts into words, get advise & someelses point of view and just get help to focus & see clearly. And it works out so well to talk to Johan. He's easy to talk to to, he understands, can see what's happening, make paralells and so.. it's just a great feeling :) He's such a blessing..

I had a borrowed a car(only that was a blessing and sent from God) so I drove buy my brother's place in Alingsås to say hi and pick up a TV they said I could have. Everything worked out so well that afternoon- the blessed chat and beeing able to pick up the TV and everything easy with a car! In the evening a friend came buy. We had dinner, talked, had tea and just hung out in my kitchen.. really nice!! awesome to see her again!

Yesterday it was time for some worshipdance but I wasn't in the mood at all :( were tired and on top of it all I had some trouble with the cd/music when I was going to practise before and all I wanted to do was to go home and lay down in my sofa. But Jenny & I danced some anyways. Was ok. When I came home I just went straight to the sofa. Watched "Grey's anatomy" and called my beloved friend Johnny, we talked for almost an hour.. just so much fun!

I'm gonna continue to enjoy my evening.. you have a good one!!
love