saturday..

So, it's weekend again.. nice!!! :)
Sitting here watching tv, just had a cup of coffee, and try to figure out what I'm gonna do today- if I'm gonna work out or get a haircut.. and I also need to register to a conference in Chicago that takes place in June. Gonna visit Vera, Scott and the kids in Leesburg too when I'm already over seas.. can't wait!! Miss them soo much!!

Went home to Delsbo for easter. Nice to be home and see parts of my family and to see some snow!! the weather was awesome- below cero celicius and sunshine the whole weelend. Sooo nice!! :) I took walks, played with my nieces and nephew and had lots of good food :) the best part were to walk in the snow on our fields were just animals has walked before me. Awesome!!!

Unfortunaly I got sick on Easterday, got dizzy and had a terrible headace and then I threw up twice :( were better on Monday so I could be up and I could eat but I still had a headace and were a litte dizzy.. just hate when it happens!! about a month ago I were home from work for two days ´cause I were dizzy and had a headace. My head has been bothering my for some time- don't know what's up with it, haven't helped to sleep and rest. Maybe I have gotten a virus on the balanceorgan in the ear or maybe it has to do with that my sight has changed the past months and my glasses has been totally wrong. Got my new ones this Wednesday, it's sooo nice to see proberly again- My head is better so I hope it was that that was the cause to my headproblems..

Otherwise then that life goes on like usual- work and church and friends.. has been awesome to see everyone again after almost a week in Delsbo. It was great fun to be back at work!
Well, maybe time to do something out of this day.. :)

xoxo

weekend..

Yees, it's weekend and I'm so enjoying it! I feel relaxed and at peace. The weekend has started out really good and I think it will continue to be an awesome weekend!! :)

Last night after work I went by a colleague to give her her glasses that she forgot at work. I got offered som coffee and we sat in down in her sofa and watched tv and talked. So nice and a perfect way to calm down & start to the weekend on.
This morning I just took it easy; watched tv, wrote in my diary and so.. Then I took a walk and bought myself a digital camera so look forward to some pics now and then :) I just have had lunch and I'm resting and prepearing for tonight.. gonna go to a friends place and watch Melodifestivalen (swedish eurovision song contest). So looking forward to see my friends, hang out & have fun.. getting excited :)

I need this weekend and all the peace and fun that fills it after this past week. It has been a good week mostly but also frustrating and enyoing...
On Tuesday I had a chat/appointment with the therapist I have seen regulary since December. It has been good and giving chats mostly but this time I got mad and enoyed. One thing is that I can't agree on some things he said and in the way how he sees things. But the biggest issue is that he couldn't understand me and it felt like he thinks I´m wrong and what I feel and experience is wrong. Made me sad and mad.. He will for sure hear what I think on next appointment, which is on Monday. For me is what I feel and experience real and I know that many experience the same things as me and agrees with me. I know that.. well well..

I had some soft and realxed afternoons at home on Wednesday & Thursday and on Thursday evening I got a visitor.. didn't go as well as the other times we has seen eachother but it was an nice evening. I guess we both need to figure out what we want and where we stand..but it made me think and react afterwards.. sigh..

One of my friends mum is ill but she(my friend) hasn't had the energy or time to talk to me and tell me what happens. I understand that and I feel with her, but I feel left out, even though I don't need to. Hate it!!!!
Well, after this week I feel like I need a fun and relaxed weekend to recharge. And I'm so glad that the jazzdance is fun and that it feels better at work again. Has been such a blessing this week..

That was my week.. now I'm gonna have some coffee and then get ready to go to my friend.. can't wait :) and tomorrow it's church!! My prayinggroup is respinsible for the service together with the priest. Will be a good service I think. I'm looking forward to it and I'm filled with expectation.. :)

xoxo

Friday..

Sitting here in front of the TV with my new laptop :) like I have done the last 24 hours. Didn't go to work yesterday. I couldn't get out of bed, were so tired and my body felt strange- heavy head with headace and some dizziness, so I continued to sleep and called in sick at work.. soo nice and well needed to be home and just do nothing. Except a quick walk/trip to the groccerystore I layed in the sofa the whole day.. I will be home today too, my head is much better but is still bothering me a little so it thought it would be good to stay home and rest properly and get 100% well.. cath up on sleep and rest. Which has been put aside theese past week. Only have myself to blame for that.. why do I never learn??

Last weekend were pretty soft and easygoing. Hung out with friends on Saturday night and on Sunday evening I went to church as usual. It was a good service and the kids were soo cute :) They had a short musical, awesome!!
On Monday morning I were home taking it easy and then I went to town to go on the booksale and drop of some films for development. And I bought myself a new computer :) my old one started to give up so it was time for a new one. I went home and had some lunch, took a nap and worked out.. then it was praying group. It was nice and giving as usual. awesome to come together and talk, sing and pray like that!!

Tuesday and Wednesday were just work and work- first my regular work and in the afternoons I cleaned in church. So it has been long days, but it was fun and nice to clean in church and hang out some with the staff there. Were really tired so when I came home on Wednesday evening I just crashed infront of the tv with a headace.. and the rest you know :)

Otherwise I really enjoy my life right now.. good things are happening. God is good and he really shows that he knows what I need and when I need it..

..Have a good weekend!!
love

March

Can you believe it´s already March?? I can't.. the time has passed by fast. The weeks has just flown buy.. it has been busy weeks and I have been so tired and sick of things. Just wanted to get away somewhere to sleep and do nothing.. but couldn't ´cause of the conference we had in church a week ago that I helped to plan and pull together.

The conference,Livsväg, came out really good!! We that were responsible for it and had planned it are satisfied and the participans were very glad and satisfied to!! God was there; moved, touched, healed, led through the weekend and gave strength!! It was awesome!! some pics from the weekend..




Although I have been tired and so theese past weeks I'm happy and glad ´cause I see that God is working and he is healing my soul/spirit bit buy bit and makes my inner person stronger and stronger. Some radical things has happend with my selfesteem and my dance/worship-God has lifted it to another level. I'm so excited, I can't wait to see what God has in store for me and how he wants to use my experiences for his kingdom..

Have had some tough weeks at work, probably ´cause I have been tired, but now it feels better again.Although it's getting tuff to get up 5am three days/week. But hopefully it gets better when the sping and light comes.. Yesterday I worked late, and so did my friend Maria. She did facepainting on some kids and when I walked buy she asked if she could do on me too. And ofcourse I couldn't resist :) so here is Maria, the tiger..


ooh, one more very nice thing has happend.. don't know if I want to tell you yet but I'll keep you updated on it when I'm ready. Hellen-I'll tell you on icq and in my next letter. Don't worry :)

Over and out for now..
xoxo